Bận --> ít quan tâm
Ko bận --> rất quan tâm

Ko hiểu !!! Bây h đang rất đc quan tâm, ko biết fai làm sao đây !!!

Sense of crisis

Omg, one semester is going to finish, and until now I've just started to feel a sense of impending crisis.
What have I done in this semester??? Almost nothing? I have no idea at all.

Remembering last year, I started my university life with eagerness, actively doing many things, volunteer activities, English speaking club, spending more time in the library to study than now ... although it took so much time that I almost had no time for myself.
But from this April, have I been so busy? Completely not busy, but time passed away without noticing me at all. And now I realized that I've become extremely lazy, almost participating in no volunteer activity, studying not so much, entirely not going to the English speaking club ... nothing except from CRYING and thinking about MISCELLANEOUS THINGS =.=

I'm going to apply for a 12man yen per month scholarship, but it seems to be more and more impossible for me while realizing many other people doing many epic things. I never keep pace with them :(((((((((

Tell me what I should do now !!!!

when heart pains, tears drop out.

Chui vào đây khóc
:(((((((((((((((((((((((((((

Đã chẩn đoán được bệnh của mình !!!
Cố gắng để ko fai vào trại như 2 nàng kia, bắt đầu bằng đổi nền máy tính sang ảnh thiên nhiên, hạn chế nhắn tin khi ko cần thiết, cố gắng ko skype 24/24, ko khóc lóc, ko nghĩ ngợi linh tinh, đi chơi nhiều hơn, tập trung vào làm việc của mình ...

Process of controlling my mind

Chán lắm rồi, ghét lắm rồi, mệt lắm rồi, đuối lắm rồi, không chịu nổi nữa rồi .....

Ghét máy tính, ghét skype, ghét điện thoại, ghét tin nhắn, ghét tất cả những phương tiện truyền thông ....

Hik, khóc 1 mình !!!

You make me happy, you make me laugh, you make me passionate, you keep me looking forward to you, you evoke my fond remembrances. But ... you make me sad, you make me cry, you make me down, you pay more attention at work than me.

You make me depressed, you make me worried, you make me fearful, you make me disappointed.

You share your thinking to me, you tell me all of your plans. You make me show my sentiment, you make me bare my heart, you understand me

But you still make me feel ... like that

Today is Hoa's birthday. It reminds me about my two birthdays since I came to Japan. The first year, when I still lived with friends, 7 people in one house, we celebrated every member's birthday party. There were always our favorite ice-cream, green soybeans and some drinks, snacks. It's pretty small rare gatherings while everyone was too busy with study and one's own part time job. On my birthday, after school I went for part time job as usual. In that year, part time jobs seemed to be such an indispensable part of our lives that almost no one took a holiday even on birthday or new year's day. But to me, it's a little unfortunate that I had to work all day from 1 p.m to 12h. Not only did the hard work make me exhausted and disgusted but also the thinking that my birthday wasn't remembered, led a terribly grief mood.I even couldn't receive my parents' call at late because of working. I cried secretly without letting the others notice. Though my boss finally knew it's my birthday and bought me a lot of confections, and despite the simple birthday party made by my friends at midnight, my mood couldn't cheer up at all. Such an unforgettable birthday in my life!
The second year, I started living alone, no friends nearby, which made me a little afraid that I had to spend my birthday alone, or at best only talking with my parents and chatting with someone on internet. But Huyen came, surprisingly, making it happier and more enjoyable, warmly and mildly. And I had Hoa make me a birthday cake by herself, the same as the previous year, cutely and appetizingly, even though I could only enjoy it by eyes ^.^ But the important thing is that having such lovely friends is the most precious present I have ever received from God.
Then, this year, who am I spending my birthday with? Maybe it's too early to talk about October's story, but I'm still wondering. I don't need a big one that much many people come and stir up. I just need someone special, only one, on my special day. Is it an excessive claim?